To Infinity and Beyond

Hello to all I'm posting this from my phone at dinner. Oh the joys of portability. :) I really really really miss my friends. why oh why must they be scattered across the globe like continents? But I digress.... Anyway me and Ijania went out last night . We saw a touching little movie called The Secret Life of Bees and boy if that wasn't a date movie I don't know what was. I swear that theatre was filled with nothing but couples and mamas. Seeing all this beautiful black love made me depressed. where is my girlfriend? i know what you're thinking... a handsome guy like you doesn't have a girlfriend? Well the answer is no and I'm mad as hello ( t9 is hilarious) about it too. I mean I'm smart, nice, a snazzy dresser, and above all I'm damn sexy if i do say so myself. So why don't I have one of the things I feel will make my life complete? One word: fear. Every time I have approached a girl in the romantic sense it backfires and I end up in a pile of shame. Hoping to avoid the feel of rejection and shame I decided to do something different I decided instead of being the lover I would be the friend. The friend is a role I have perfected over the past four years and while I genuinely love my friends I am tired of being the one they call when they need a guy's opinion on things. For once I would like to call them and ask for advice and help in MY relationship. at this point all my friends are betrothed and it sucks. Everytime I call them I here stories of dates and questions of advice ( its funny how they all listen and take what i say into consideration seeing as how I've never actually been in a relationship before lol) I just want know what i should do to fix this dry spell of my love life . Any thoughts,kind words, and advice would be appreciated as I feel I have rambled enough. Love Peace Afro Grease