Oh The Sun Is Shining Brighter Cause You Really Make My Day Yea You Really Make My Day Oh Oh Oh

I'm sorry for my absence but I'm back with a vengeance lol. Anyways my last post was about The Noisette's upcoming cd which I am patiently waiting for but in other news N.E.R.D. is coming to my school in April ..... FOR FREE!!!!!!!!!!! I am like geeked out of my f_____g mind. Seriously my excitement level is unmeasurable . I thought I had the time of my life when I bought my tickets imagine how's its' gonna be with no sacrifice lol. I can't wait. THE END.

Baby When I Am Laid In Earth May My Laughter Remain Like Your Kiss Blew Me Away

ZOMG!!!! That basically sums up what I'm feeling right now. I just found out that one of my FAVORITE bands the NOISEttes are releasing a new cd on 3.30. Iam so excited I have been in love with the NOISEttes since march of 2007 when i was watching my favorite discontinued sattelite station IMF(international music feed) and i came acroos their video for Sister Rosetta (Capture The Spirit) ... fast foward about three four months until the end of summer beginning of senior year I was perusing yahoo music and i found their video for The Count Of Monte Christo. It was after hearing this I decided to download the whole cd and magic was created instantly. That first cd is one of the only cds i can listen to all the way through without skipping one song at all. So with that I've decided to share the joy lol They wont let me embed so i'll just give you the link to their youtube channel http://www.youtube.com/user/NoisettesOfficial

Changes....

Hey Im thinking of changing this to more of an entertainment/picture blog so in the future there will be none of my ramblings lol

Hello My Love, It's Getting Cold On This Island

New Picture. That is all.

The Truth Is, We Were Much To Young ...

Why am I an afterthought? Why doesn't anyone think about me until after the fact? I mean seriously in all the relationships I have (mainly... scratch that ... only platonic) I am the one who calls I am the one who messages It's like no one thinks of me until I contact them. I barely got invited anywhere in high school but then when I was regaled with stories I was always asked why I didn't go or told that I should have come. MAYBE YOU DIPWADS SHOULD HAVE INVITED ME! If this you're reading this and you feel it's untrue then I'm sorry but I'm paranoid about these things and I have good reason. I went through half of elementary and all of middle school with no friends ABSOLUTELY NO ONE. It all started in the fourth grade we came back from summer vacation and nobody liked me anymore. To this day I don't know what happened or what I did to cause that. People teased me basically everyday calling me ugly, poor, and everything in between and most of the people that did this were those I considered friends just a summer ago. Even the lames made fun of me. I hated it, even thought of commiting suicide a few times. Most days I would come home and cry asking God why nobody liked me. When high school came around I promised myself that I would fix whatever mistake I made at Bates and that I would make myself become more likeable. So August 2004 rolls around and I try to fit in, in this place called Renaissance High and I was mildly successful. I wasn't Mr. Popular but I did have some friends and that was fine with me but then I started getting paranoid. What if these people aren't my friends and they just tolerate me cause they think I'll still be a nusance either way? I didn't acknowledge my best friend since ninth grade as being my best friend until she told me I was hers and that was around eleventh twelth grade lol But anyway I saying all this to say I'm ready to change. I'm tired of being the afterthought I want to be someone's first thought It's going to take a lot of work but I can do it. P.S. This will be my last serious post. I'm not a very deep person and I've become sick of trying to be so I can have something to write about on this dumbass blog. From now on it'll be just daily ramblings about me or stuff I like and think you should like oh and they'll be pictures .... alot more pictures

I'm Killing it I'm Killing it

Hey there bitches! So I'm back with the first post of the new yearand nothing has really changed much. I'm still black and I'm still alive. We're going to be moving soon, hopefully real soon. Truth be told I'm ready to go back to the dorm. I can't wait for the new semester to start. The boredom caused by my environment is heinous. IN other news, I have job interview and I really hope I get it seeing as how I'm probably not going to recieve a refund this semester. That really sucks balls. I had a lot of plans for that little check. :( Plus I have to buy books pay off my balance and buy a new charger for my laptop. Speaking of which I have been laptop less since the beginning of break and it has been hell. I got so used to laying down and surfing the net at the same time and not to mention alot of my music is on there and it was a tad bit more private where as the household computer is in the dining room and comes complete with mother over shoulder. So as soon as i get forty bucks I'm heading to micro center, STAT! I wish oprah was my mama lol

And It's Been Awhile

Hello, Hello, I have neglected this blog and for that I'm sorry. It's not like I don't like blogging it's just I NEVER have anything to write about. As I mentioned before I am not a very profound or deep person. Stuff just doesnt effect me like it does others. One thing I do want to discuss is gender roles is American society. This is something that has been bugging me for quite sometime now. Feminists are always championing for equality between genders but can there really be true equality? What about male's rights? Of course there are double standards on both sides. But are they politically correct in this day and age when gender lines are blurred everyday. Then with that comes the question What about transgenders and those who feel as if they were born in the wrong body? Where do they fall in terms of gender roles? From childhood we are taught that men are protectors and women are the protected. Men go out and work and in return the wife shows her devotion by keeping up with the home. Many people call this view chauvinistic and outdated. I dont agree. I believe myself to be a modernt traditionalist of sorts. I believe that we can have the same gender roles and achieve equality at the same time. To me a women should desire protection and provision from men as long as she views it as a priviledge and not a right i.e., She wants the man to do for her but she doesnt expect it. The same goes for men. A man should know that his woman may show him gratitude by taking care of him and their home but it should never be taken for granted. But what happens when people abuse their gender roles in society? Examples being when a man sluts off every chance he gets because he won't be considered a whore like a woman or the woman who cries rape or calls her brothers or cousins on a man when she doesnt get her way in the relationship. But there are other stereotypes and associations we have with gender that have nothing to do with relationships and romance. Traditonally men are the rough and rugged type. The type that play sports and drinkbeer and do other "manly" stuff. Guys that dont follow this stereotype are often classified as gay or weird. I am quite fashionable in my book. I read magazines like GQ and follow up with new trends and know the difference between a designer label (Marc Jacobs, Zac Posen) and a name brand (Rocawear, Babyphat) which is something many guys would not be able to or dont care to do. This fall an occassion came up where I was hit on by a guy simply because of what I was wearing. I was walking through the student center with Paige and this guy proceeds to walk up to me and ask me if I had a boyfriend completely bypassing the fact that I was walking very closely with a girl. Upset I quickly grabbed Paige's hand and said she was my girlfriend. I was greatly upset. How do you just walk up to someone and just assume that they're apart of your lifestyle. Paige later brought it to my attention that it was probably because of the way I was dressed (white button up, green sweater, black pants, and black and white volcom slip ons) Traditionally men, especially the all american man's man, dont pay much attention to clothing and style so when people see a man who dresses better than average they're automatically percieved as gay. Kanye West, Pharrell and Andre 3000 have all expressed their feelings of this problem. Women also have problems like this. And we can't forget that race also has a hand in how gender roles are charactierized. So my final question to you is where do you stand on the subject of gender roles in modern society?