Oh Lord Take Me Back...Oh Lord

First and foremost I encourage everybody to look up a British band that goes by the name SugaRush Beat Company. Anybody remember a couple of weeks ago when I decided to make that post about stuff that I like and dislike? Well if not I said I would continue with that list when I remembered and yes I finally remembered. On with the show.

• I love movies ( Dramas, Action, and Suspense in particular)
• The greatest love story of all time is Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
• A Black Male who dresses nice DO NOT = gay
• Keri Hilson DOES = Sexy
• I have 3 idols in life Pharrell Williams, Kanye West, and Andre 3000
• September 28, 2008 was one of the best nights of my life
• Prince is the epitome of cool
• Nina Simone was not physically attractive yet her songs are the epitome of sexy
• Alesia is probably right, Lil Wayne just might be the devil
• Sia = PHENOMENAL
• Sometimes I wish my grandmother was still alive
• Sometimes I wish my other grandmother would like me
• I'm pretentious yet not a snob is this possible ?
• I need some new clothes
• I miss Rhonda (there I said it )
• I hate most gender roles and stereotypes
• I am DEATHLY afraid of crack ... seriously if yu're on crack or thinking abut doing crack get away from me now
• I like being alone yet dont feel complete unless I'm apart of a group

• Bates Academy took my self esteem and shot it straight to hell
• As a result, I'm afraid of rejection, being alone, and several other things

• It may not seem like it but Im terrified of meeting new people
• Every body I know is cooler than me and it makes me sad
• I'm afraid that my friends dont really like me and they just tolerate me because they think i will follow them anyway (its happened before)
• Sometimes I can be terribly irritating and Im sorry
• I think i have serious add (ooh look at that bird outside)
• I want a tattoo on the outside of my foot that says To Infinity and Beyond
• I am shallow and I dont know how to be deep its just not in me
• I dont think i give good advice but my friends all talk to me like i do

• I want to go to church idk why i just do

Well time's up I'll think I'll stop there for today.

To Infinity and Beyond

Hello to all I'm posting this from my phone at dinner. Oh the joys of portability. :) I really really really miss my friends. why oh why must they be scattered across the globe like continents? But I digress.... Anyway me and Ijania went out last night . We saw a touching little movie called The Secret Life of Bees and boy if that wasn't a date movie I don't know what was. I swear that theatre was filled with nothing but couples and mamas. Seeing all this beautiful black love made me depressed. where is my girlfriend? i know what you're thinking... a handsome guy like you doesn't have a girlfriend? Well the answer is no and I'm mad as hello ( t9 is hilarious) about it too. I mean I'm smart, nice, a snazzy dresser, and above all I'm damn sexy if i do say so myself. So why don't I have one of the things I feel will make my life complete? One word: fear. Every time I have approached a girl in the romantic sense it backfires and I end up in a pile of shame. Hoping to avoid the feel of rejection and shame I decided to do something different I decided instead of being the lover I would be the friend. The friend is a role I have perfected over the past four years and while I genuinely love my friends I am tired of being the one they call when they need a guy's opinion on things. For once I would like to call them and ask for advice and help in MY relationship. at this point all my friends are betrothed and it sucks. Everytime I call them I here stories of dates and questions of advice ( its funny how they all listen and take what i say into consideration seeing as how I've never actually been in a relationship before lol) I just want know what i should do to fix this dry spell of my love life . Any thoughts,kind words, and advice would be appreciated as I feel I have rambled enough. Love Peace Afro Grease

He Lost His Soul To A Woman So Heartless

I know in the last post I said I would post more often and I am sorry for that terrible lie. In retrospect and upon reading other blogs I realized mine is about absolutely nothing. Everyone else's blog is this brilliant expose of their lives and views of the world while mine is just a piece of fluff never more than a paragraph long. So with that said I have decided to do something different with this post. Usually I just give a rundown of my day or week. This time I'm going to open up about things I like dislike and really feel. ~ Kanye West 808's and Heartbreak WILL be the best album of the year ~ I really really really need a job , like really ~ I feel like I've been slipping in my spirituality. ~ To me atheists are depressed wanderers or pompous all knowing bastards (no offense just my opinion) ~ I really hate when people misspell things If you cant take the time to spell something right or at least correct yourself your life should be void instantly ~ Carrots, Commas, Math and Research Papers are the devil ~ Why does everyone underestimate my intelligence? I got a 23 on the ACT that I FELL ASLEEP on and as result had to randomly bubble in about 50 questions. Think of what i could do if i stayed awake... ~ Beyonce = Death to all Female Performers and it's quite sad ~ My birthday is in one month Canada anyone?.... ~ I am a pushover and I admit it ~ Paige said I was shallow I think she might be right :( ~ I miss my friends ~ I paid my phone bill for the next two months :) ~ Wisdom looks ahead ~ I need to blog more ~ I need a new layout ~ Sometimes it feels like I dont go to a real college but then again it's free so who cares ~ My life is about a million times less stressful then it was in high school ~ I want to be cool but I dont think it's in me lol ~ I dress nice because it's fun to look better then others (sad right?) ~ I might be 1/5 of a terrible person but I dont care ~ I should be in math so I'll continue this later ... If i remember